Helpless

No matter how tough i may appear to be. In the end i still lose to my heart.

But mind keep telling me what i should do, what i should not.

i know, this is getting me insane. I actually follow what my heart feel.

Lost my way...

i feel so insecure for everything ...

Why giving me such an emo life ?? =(

Life

As usual, school is boring but at least i still have 2 sweethearts with me =D Today after school went clarke quay to have lunch with tian. She always make me gain weight only ~~ everytime bring us go eat nice nice foods. lol. I must go swimming more often !

One of my classmate asked me about u today. Suddenly my mind turn blank for a moment. No matter what, i know u will find ur happiness soon. This is the reason why i make up my mind not to turn back ! Never...

I wanna have fun and let myself free ~

So...girls, plan our genting trip soon ! =)

Tomorrow working. Oh ~ sian half.

我不是绝情而是脆弱。

Disappointment

Today went down bugis to return the uniform. After that went shopping with sindy. lol i bought a tube shirt ! i like it =) and is $10 only.

We went back sk after all the shopping and i meet my mum at cp. So because of the 70% sales at cp, i bought another shirt ! hehe. sales everywhere ~ good time for shopping !

Looking foward for the next outing with my friends ~




Everywhere i go reminds me of you. why ? i don't like that feeling.

Now even the person i trust most make me so disappointed.

No longer the same anymore. Could someone lend me your ear ?



If you expected even more, you will be disappointed.

accept the reality

这世界上有很多事情是不公平的。那又能怨谁？就只能去接受。

好希望能够回到小时候。长大了有什么好？

现在的我不快乐。。。

I might get stronger everyday, but deep down, the pain is still there.

sick

arghhhhhhh !!! feeling so sick. After yesterday USS, my throat become more serious. I shouldn't eat those fried foods. Having fever too.

Went to see doc early in the morning. My friend suppose to come and accompany me but in the end he need to go for last min meeting. eeeeyer ! So me alone waited at the clinic for 1 hour+ =(

Alright, feeling sleepy now after eating the medicine.


Lastly,

Picture of the day !

ups and downs

Hey ! Its been so long since my last blog. Been working and slacking ~

Every now and then, i looking forward for my rest days. Feel kinda sick to go work and face people that i can't get along with. Well, when you are outside working, you always need to wear "mask" to face people around you. I worked for so many years, i should know who are the one that is true to you and who are the one who just trying to take advantage of you. Exclude those who really know how to act.

And i realised those company that have commission normally very complicated. They either "steal" your commission or scare you "eat" their commission. This happened in my current job. Some ppl are just too anxious that i will steal their customers. Please, for goodness sake. My commission is not $100+ ok. Who wan to snatch from you ? Anyway nvm, cause i decided to quit this job and head back to my previous job =)

oh ya, my term 2 results is out !! Although i passed all except comm skill but i still have 2 remodules and one sub paper !! omg. I assume another nightmare going to come soon. Trying to earn more money within this few months. I'm prepared for the worst.

And...And...i want to go out !! Feel like going to universal studio. lol. anyone ?? *wink*


I'm constantly pushing away those who care, because I'm in love with the one who doesn't.

Exhausted

Yesterday, supervisor teach me cashier but i was not concentrate so keep making silly mistakes. I dont have the mood to listen what she say. What's wrong ?

Failure in studies.
Failure in working.
Failure in relationship.
Within this few months, all this come in one time.

yes. i'm so exhausted.

Quit or stay ? I will have a conclusion once i get my term 2 results slip.
Wait and see....

off to work again...



I'm going to forgive and forget. FORGIVE myself for falling for you & FORGET you ever existed.